Been Hurt Too Much?
(if you don’t want the long read, you can scroll down for the punchline)
The idea for these sites started with a friend of a friend in 2015. We were in a conversation and she said that there wasn’t any decent men in our area, course she had just met us. But she went on the say, “There needs to be a site called over 40 & scared of women because I’ve been hurt too much. So I went and bought the domain. lol
You might could say I fit that description. I later morphed that idea into just “Been Hurt Too Much” so that it would not be gender specific. So the site was designed to be a support site for us who are either damaged or on the verge of being such, to reach out and help each other tread through recovery and work towards the light. Learn how not to be hurt too much and not loose the faith that there is someone good “Somewhere Out There”.
People wander why I am developing trust issues???
I have been used, abused, stabbed in the back, cheated on, kicked while I was down, and spit on by women most of my life. Where do all the good girls go, to Hide Away???
I will try to keep this short.
Since my 1st marriage, I have had three total; relationships have not been easy. Non of them are you might add, and I would agree. My 1st wife had mental issues, and we ended up parting ways after I got so disparaged that I tried to kill myself in 1993. Later, in 1996 due to religion; I ended up going back to her because I was feeling guilty and convicted by listening to this stupid preacher.
In-between such time, I had met my oldest sons mother. Needless to say, things didn’t work out. Months after the breakup, I found out she was pregnant and that I was supposedly the father. I then tried to make things work with her again because it was “the right thing to do”. Again, it didn’t work. I never got a paternity test, because I was an idiot. Later I couldn’t, because I waited too long. I also found out later that she set me up for to get pregnant in the 1st place. She lied to me saying she was on the pill and that I didn’t need to wear a rubber. Now she says I am lying and that she was never on the pill and I knew it.
The relationship was going sideways, and she thought that having a baby would save the relationship. But not getting off her butt and blowing all my money was what killed it. I worked two jobs while she stayed home and watch TV. I then came home and had to cook and clean. We broke up when we got evicted because she wasn’t paying the bills with the money I gave to to do so.
After my oldest son was born, she basically drug the through the court system for 20 years making my life hell. After my youngest son was born, a year later, she cheated on me with an illegal immigrant and then filed for divorce with me and married him to try and cover up the fact that fact that she got pregnant by him during the affair. She’s been trying to get me to come back to her since. But because I don’t, she too has use the government to make my life hell; and uncle Sam is happy to do so.
After my divorce in 1998, I became a trucker for survival reason because child support was getting the best of me. With a free roof over my head, I could still live and work. After tax and child support, my checks we less then $100 a week. Sometimes not at all, so I unloaded my own loads for extra cast so that I could eat.
Around that time, I met my daughters mother. Being a rookie trucker, under contract with the trucking company to pay for my so-called schooling; they never let me hardly go home. After she supposedly gave birth to my daughter, she said she gave her up for adoption. I was sort of OK with that, since I already had too much child support to begin with. I say “supposedly” gave birth to my daughter, because I never saw her or any real proof that she even existed; I just took her mothers word for it.
Why is it; that if you believe and trust a woman who lies to you, it’s your fault for being an idiot. But; if you don’t believe or trust her, you are an ass hole… ?
Later, she ended up flaming me and telling people I was a dead beat dad and so forth. After looking into this matter further; her mother said she never gave birth, that she had an abortion. Looking back, knowing what I now know… She was on the shot. I know because I took her to the appointment. She didn’t have an abortion, I don’t think; I think she miscarried because that is a side effect of getting pregnant while being on the shot. But why did she lie???
I also found out from her mother that days of doing my homework on my daughters existence, that she was under age when she got pregnant. I was like WTF!? I asked her mother why she never said anything, because I had no idea. We had dinner many times with her family, and no one ever said a word. She then told me that they never said anything because they figured out a long time ago, that she was just going to do what she wanted to do, and there was nothing they could do about it. That whole thing just freaked me out. After that, I went and joined the “clip club” and got a vasectomy.
My 2nd marriage really wasn’t so bad. But after loosing so much in my 1st marriage, I was a little paranoid when a year into my 2nd marriage she threatened divorce. I was an over the road truck driver at the time and so I came home, packed all my stuff and moved out. Later I discovered that she only threatened divorce in order to try and control me; needless to say, that didn’t work. She said she wanted to work things out, but we just never recovered from that.
Overall, we didn’t really have too many issues. Just my child support made things a little difficult. Her father didn’t like that I wasn’t black, so he made things difficult. I am sure there are other little things I am forgetting, but those were the major issues.
My 3rd and final marriage failed in 2012 partly because I had trust issues and was too afraid to “legalize” our marriage through the government; she ultimately cheated on me and that was when I ended the relationship and pretty much lost everything.
Rewinding… I knew her since 1998 when she was married to her 1st husband. He was the brother to my brothers wife. So we were family. After hers and my divorce, we ended up together. It was really a great relationship for the most part, the best I ever had. Maybe I should have legalized the marriage like she wanted; but when I came close to doing so, I literally had a nerviness breakdown. I had another one after she went behind my back with the other guy. I probably would have legalized it, if I wasn’t constantly catching her in lies. Would she have still cheated on me if I had given her that paper? I will never know.
I cannot remember when I discovered the MGTOW community, but it was some time after that affair. I have been on the brink of MGTOW since. I knew her for 14 years, helped raise her two daughters which I grew to know as my own. For the first 7 years, I was an uncle to them; and the 2nd seven years I was like a father. I have done more for the three of them then any man in their past and maybe in the future. After the split up, she went and told everyone I was a pedophile. Needless to say, I am now afraid to date women with children.
In 2013 a friend hooked me up with a woman and unbeknownst to me, I was entering into a relationship with an abusive alcoholic. Not near as bad as the one in 2017, but bad enough. That relationship last about a year and it took me over two years before entering into another.
In 2017, I had one of the worst experiences in relationships I can remember. Brief and yet traumatizing. I have not dated since. Now as of 2019, I don’t see myself entering into another long term commuted relationship ever again; even though I still long for one. I have slowly been noticing issues and wondering what the solutions where for years. I am now also thinking about going back to school and furthering my education in psychology, now that I am about done with child support; to maybe help resolve some of these issues.
The Been Hurt too much website never took off…
Around 2010, I had bought two sites; Girls for Gender Equality & Girls for Gender Equity. At the time, I thought they were the same thing. Around that time, I also started my path as a freedom fighter. I had been learning about, fighting against and educating others on socialism, communism and the increase in the Size, the Cost, the extend of the Reach And the Power of a terroristic tyrannical government.
Growing up, I thought Feminism was a good thing. I believed the lies and was raised in a way that would make a feminist proud. Later to be damaged by it. I never realized till recently that feminism is just another Nio Nazi doctrine to control and ultimately destroy us. It may not of started out that way, but that’s certainly the way it is now. Men and women join this movement like they do any other just cause that they believe in; like the police force, medical field, military, politics and the like. Later to discover, (if they ever figure it out), that it is not what they signed up for.
The communists have infiltrated just about everything. Long of the short, in 2019 I am now launching two sites. Girls for Gender Equality & Guys for Gender Equality. I myself am not a trailblazer in this field, but an advocate. So these will be index sites to promote those trailblazers and hopefully help to wake people up. Been Hurt Too Much was to be gender neutral, and hopefully we can do the same with these two as well. They are separate, but yet the same.